It asked- so, are you ready? We should leave now.
I tried to palliate the situation and replied in a firm voice- why didn’t you inform me earlier. I am not ready.
It said- you knew always that I will be coming, why didn’t you prepared for it earlier.
I said- i need some time.
It said- I am being munificent here, don’t try to provoke me.
A dirge started playing in the background, everything around was in motion.
I was obdurate all my life, and that made me worried, I thought I was being maverick, but nothing really defines you if you are without a sense of responsibility. My benevolence was hiding deep inside, I always maligned others. But now all I wanted was to discover the hidden benevolence, and bring it to life, use it to see some smiles.
But was it too late?
It was still waiting for my answer. It again asked- do you want something?
I said- I have a question for you, why didn’t you came earlier, you could have controlled my egregious behavior.
It said- I was always there inside you, only now I am no more there.
I was perplexed, I asked- how can it be true, I was alive all this time.
It replied- were you really alive, or you were dead from inside?
I realized that it was right, I was dead from inside. Though my body was alive, but it was different from inside, life was struggling inside me.
I tried to convince it but my efforts went in vain, it was ready to grab me and take me with it.
Suddenly my dream broke, I was sweating, my heart was racing.
It was my death I realized, which came to warn me. It made my inner self alive.
Quite baffling it was, my death gave me life.