Be Alive…..

 

I was thrashed out of my house, I was not able to fulfill their expectations, I was impecunious. They always said they loved me, it was really hard to comprehend , because the evidence was against them. They were responsible for the desecration of my holy mind. They all seemed ludicrous to me, because of the way they behaved and the acts they did.

 
 

I tried to ameliorate the situation every single time, but there was no pleasing them, they wanted things that I was not able to provide. How can a doctor be a lawyer? The question was very simple, but then simplicity is scarce in today’s world.

 
 

I was fed up of their carping, but never did I doubt my ability, I don’t know what, but something from inside always told me that I am doing right. That can’t be proven, it can only be felt.

 
 

Their ostentatious behavior made my life worse, when I was being thrown out, people were lamenting looking at me. They were really angry at my family for doing this to me, I could see that in their teary eyes.

 
 

I on the other hand, was thought of as a despondent, but it was not so. I was happy. It is actually a really strange thing to say, but It is true. No more burdens and pressures, life was with me, walking with me, struggling with me, crying with me, laughing with me.

 
 

The air around was sanguine dancing on the incantation of my hope, I had no money, no place to live, nothing to eat. But my smile was constantly interacting with my cheeks on the direction of my serene mind.

 
 

Whatever they say now, their sardonic behavior is not going to trouble me. I have plenty of choices, I can do good or bad, all will be on me. I will fall, but my courage will always shine on my shoulders, I will succeed but my feet will always be on the ground.

 
 

It was all in front of me, the lights, the people, the noise, the calmness, the serenity, the clumsiness, the obdurateness, the peace, and I was with all of them, with power of choosing in my hand, the power to decide which way to go. I didn’t hate life, I didn’t love life, I was happy because I was alive.

0 thoughts on “Be Alive…..”

  1. Vinitha says:

    Irrespective of whatever has happened in your life, i just hope you find happiness in whatever you do. Stay happy!

    1. shreyans says:

      Thank you so much…but it was all fiction..not my story..anyways thank you for reading..

      1. Vinitha says:

        Is it? It felt so real

    2. shreyans says:

      Yes it is…..the story is not mine…but the emotions and thoughts are..thank you for appreciating and reading..glad you found it real..

  2. iamgraceaji says:

    I am not thrown out yet…but you voiced my feelings..i could understand ur joy of being free! good luck.

    1. shreyans says:

      Neither am i…it was just fiction..
      Thanks for reading..

      1. iamgraceaji says:

        Ha ha ! I was wondering, I wanted to ask ,thanks for clearing!and well written.

    2. shreyans says:

      Yes..thank you so much..

  3. Cezane says:

    This post was very strong! I loved it and we do learn a lot by sharing our experiences in matters of life. Thank you for sharing this bud! Hope you doing great, cheers!

    1. shreyans says:

      Thank you so much…but it was only fiction..only emotions were real not the story..thanks for reading..

  4. Smruti Bodhi says:

    I like the feel it gives while reading… beautiful 🙂

    1. shreyans says:

      Thank you so much…really glad you liked it..

    1. shreyans says:

      Thank you so much for reading..

  5. Neetu says:

    Very well written…. The sense of freedom which every soul needs…to feel it is ALIVE!

    1. shreyans says:

      Thank you so much mam for reading..

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