They said I was obdurate, I maligned god. Actually there was no maligning, I just ignored god, because I never connected with the god sitting inside religious places, within walls.
Being a libertarian, I often became frustrated at places where I felt that my mind was caged, my mind was quick in sensing the irreverence of the society. I became the victim of ostracism, I knew somehow that those people were being fallacious, but I didn’t had any proof. My belief was still extant, what is observed in my life was much more important to me than illogical beliefs of the society.
Their attempts to enervate me went in vain. They thought my infidelity towards the materialistic god will lead me to my death, this thought came with an elegy playing somewhere in the back of my head. They were all standing in the center of the village, which was on the boundary of a huge river.
All the planning was ready, I was about to be dispelled. My contentiousness was about to be rewarded. And then things started happening suddenly, wind started running on the surface of already flowing leaves, the sand from the ground flew in disagreement. The world which never liked to be in orderly form was finally showing its true character, its randomness, which actually was beautiful.
We ignorant humans never comprehended it earlier, but it was quite evident now. In the later moments, the whole river came to us, with its arms spread. When others sensed death, I sensed love. Everyone was running here and there, but who were they in front of that majestic nature. The river swallowed everything around, the people cried for help from god, no reply came.
The little doubt which was there from a long time finally became bigger and turned itself to truth. They were sinking with their gods, death was awaiting them. I was just walking on the waves of that mighty river, the faith was so immense that I knew I will be alive, the faith was not in god, it was in myself, the nature and life. I walked on that water, while others were drowning in front of me.
When you have fear, you have doubts, when you have faith, you have assurance. A faith with a doubt is the most dangerous thing, faith should not be blind, it comes from understanding and observation, not from illogical beliefs.
I capitulated myself to the surroundings, I didn’t had any other choice, I trusted in my destiny. If you believe in something then you should not have fear, because fear originates from incredulity.
If you don’t believe in god then why there is fear?
And if you do believe in god then why there is fear?